incessant ranting

leaving and studying abroad has always been an exciting and exhilirating thought for me. it was always a cause for a 'wow' reaction, both for me and for other people i tell it to. but after several times of putting limitations, my options are now just reduce to... two (2) cities. yes, not even states. cities. while both started out as SUGGESTIONS, they ended up being the constraint, which MUST be pursued. or else, screw this, i don't leave. and after all that, it's now difficult for me to see this as a wow-eliciting story.

my options are not very bad actually. but the thought of just having 6 options, six, 4 of which are mediocre schools (meaning 2 are not even in the rankings while the other 2 rank low), is a complete bummer. people who know me are aware of how much pride i hold about this whole studying/school issue. especially that i come from a top university. the idea of going to a mediocre school is, well, ridiculous. and the
only 2 reasons i'm holding on to those options (fyi, i was left with those 2 after hours of filtering the initial list...) are one, it's easier to get into one of them, given my stupidly and disappointingly low gpa and two, (on the basis of gpa requirements, lsat scores, passing rate for first time bar takers, and of course, average starting salary). i don't want to be mad about this whole being constrained
issue; i've been mad long enough and several times already. and it didn't change anything. but frustrations still remain.

and these are the reasons why:
1. again, options have been down to TWO cities, LA and San Diego.

please, not even SanFran?
2. initially i had about 14 options, which included fordham, georgetown, george washington, notre dame, UC hastings and UC davis.

now i'm down to 6. all from those 2 cities, two of which i've never heard of before.

i still want to leave. that will never change. but it's not as exciting anymore. i must first see celebrities before the excitement comes back. lol.