On keeping my sanity

As much as I'd like to tell new and exciting stories about my life, there's still none except the ones I've already ranted about before. Yes, I still DESIRE to go to England. I just realized (or maybe admitted) that the urge was further reinforced by my love for football. I mean, I couldn't have possibly stopped myself from feeling
even more strongly about wanting to be there. Could I? Maybe I could've. By not watching or reading about football. That way, I could start forgetting about football, then eeventually about England. When that time comes, I shall be... No, no, no. That just can't and wouldn't happen. Dream on.

LSAT test day is getting nearer. I have a little over a month to prepare. Please, reviewers, you must arrive on time. I didn't pay a thousand bucks just to get them a day or two after my test. URGENT! Preparing for the LSAT could get VERY freaky, especially knowing that the next 3-4 years of your academic life depends almost solely on that 4-hour test. You screw it up, you're doomed. The pressure is just a
killer. It's mostly like that when you don't seem to do well on the practice tests you do, while you think about how your grades in college weren't so stellar, thus leaving the LSAT almost your only chance of getting into your dream school. You must get better, you tell yourself. So you shut yourself to the rest of the world the whole night just to review. Review. Review. Thing is, I don't do that. I spend just 2 hours or so everyday reviewing. Is that enough? I hope so.

Now that I have football, I just realized, I feel more... normal and complete than I did before. I know, it's so whatever. But seriously. For a while, I thought, I was bordering on being abnormal for not having the slightest interest in sports while everybody else goes gaga over basketball, futsal, judo et al. The idea on 'abnormality' may be one way of trying to completely fit in. But I survived and made good friends in high school and college without sports. So the idea may not be a very good 'idea' at all. I thought for a while, I could survive without it. Now, it's the opposite. I couldn't survive without it. Not without football. Sheer exaggeration, I know but the hell do you care.

So my life right now revolves just around 3 things: School applications, LSAT, and football. The three are enough to keep me sane, ironically leading to insanity because of too much thinking, studying, and reading.

And then juggling them all together.